Here is an update from Savvyland. I am still working at the VA and still living at home. That pretty much sums it up.



However for the drama you all so much enjoy....that is just on the beginning. It stems from there into a giant mess of tension filled crap that drives me crazy.



Starting with the fact that I still live at home. We all know from past rants that no one at my house typically gets along. Well especially not lately. There is so much tension in my house.



1. Mom is still in school and is very stressed.

2. Kyle spends 20 of the 24 hours of the day here.

3. I spend 4 hours of the 24 here actually awake.

4. Dad is absorbed into the fantasty land of Everquest or some other internet excursion.

5. Leigh Anne is moody and anti-social

6. I am just moody I suppose lol.



All of that combined has created quite the hell hole to live in. I want to move out everyday but I feel like it is impractical and that my parents would shun me should my roomate happen to be Tyler. I found out today, however, that they feel quite the opposite. They want me to leave and they don't care if Tyler is who I live with. I think they think life would be easier if I wasn't here. For some reason the four hours of the day I am among the living I just mess everything up. A dish there, a towel here, a snide comment later on, and two animals that are poop machines that are barely tolerated half the time. I know I should be happy they are ready for me to go, but it is kinda upsetting. I used to feel welcome and now I feel like a guest that has over stayed their welcome. I didn't even think it was possible to overstay your welcome in your own home. Apparently I was wrong. I am jealous of all of your lives, I know life is not easy but sometimes don't you just look at someone else's and just think it would be nice to be them and not me. I promise I am not depressed again but I teeter close to the edge of that hole almost on a daily basis these days. Maybe I will move out...I dunno. I just really don't want to rent and I can't afford a house.



As for the question of mine and Tyler's wedding...one day I hope. Currently he is jobless so that puts a little damper on those plans. He hasn't proposed formally with a ring and all but we are already planning. We know locale and minor details. Even the kids are named lol.



I hate to be a Debbie Downer everytime I blog but it is nice to be able to vent sometimes. To some outside party that knows nothing but is always on my side.

WOW if it wasn't for autosave this post would be gone... computer cut off and came back on and it is still here yay.

Well I guess that is all for know.

Til next time

Savvy

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