Wow over the past two weeks I have had some major anxiety moments.

1. I am graduating in 6 months
2. I start clinical practice in 2 months
3. I graduate in 6 months....meaning "Hello Real World!"
4. I will be single for 11 months on the 11th of Nov.
5. I have to meet with my advisor AKA Dr. Evil and I am afraid
6. I will have enough money to live on but I have no idea how to budget/spend said money
7. I will be buying my very first car.
8. I will get the rest of my stuff from my parents house and be officially moved out
9. I will be leasing an apartment without cosignature of my parents
10. I will be paying my own insurance.
11. I am graduatiing in 6 months
12. I am going to have a real 40+ hr a week job
13. I am losing my mind


Well that s just a summary of the things freaking me out right now...just had to freak out on you guys cause I know ya don't mind :P


Until Next Time


Anxiety



The Melodramatic Savvy

Labels: anxiety, stress

Well as two of you already know...I am henceforth leaving Jeff alone and phasing him out. Although my phasing is more like blotting out entirely all at one time, but still I am letting go. Maybe once I am free of him my acne will go away lol. Maybe I'll get a date. Maybe my grades will go up. Maybe I won't have days when I am so mad I can't see straight or days when I am so sad I could just cry all day. Maybe I will finally be free. I say that I am single and free now but he still has me bonded up tight in his grip. I gotta let go and let it die. There wasn't much ever there since I couldn't even remember his name when we met for like a year. (LOL Frank) I have to just be me. Not Savvy who hates Jeff, or Savvy who torments Jeff, or Savvy and Jeff. Just Savvy, thats all....Just Savvy. I have to stand up for my heart and my feelings and get my kicks from something other than picking on Jeff. So contact has been cut off, He deleted me from Myspace and I deleted him from Facebook. It is over, it is done, it is finished...

Until Next Time

Trying to be at Peace

Just Savvy

Labels: letting go

I mean don't get me wrong I typically love rain, but today was the Homecoming Parade...the only HC event I was going to go to of my senior year..........Very sad! I really wanted to go after not going to the bonfire last night, which by the way I hear totally rocked :-< So I guess maybe I'll just have to come back next year and watch it....I didn't even get a homecoming shirt.....

Labels: homecoming, rain rain go away

You should watch who you are calling "best friend" buster!! Because I called you best friend first you never professed me as yours, as a matter of fact you never professed me much of anything to you. Well, let me ask you something...HOW DOES IT FEEL!! Now that its over you can't bring me down! You were never as good a friend to me as anyone I have ever called friend. You were never there for me unless it was convenient for you, you never did anything for me unless you felt like you had to. You were never my best friend you probably wasn't even my "best friend!" You never cared for me like you said you did, and I don't care what else you say cause it is hard to believe a liar and of all the things you have ever been to me...The love of my life, my best friend, my other half, that was the only thing you ever were...it was the only thing you were ever good at....LYING! You are a pig and a self absorbed prick! I can't stand to even look at you and I only forgave you cause I am a nice person...I know you would beg the differ but I am a whole heck of a lot nicer than you! If you treated half your friends like you treat me they wouldn't like you anyway cause you are mean to them, you are mean to everyone...I hope you know..for a matter of fact half your "friends" don't like you anyway, people that you call friends. You don't treat people like friends, you treat them like you own them...like they only like you cause they have the privilege of liking and being your friend and you can take that privilege away. But no sir, that is very wrong and you have a misconstrued conception of how life really is...you think the whole world revolves around you....well you might be large but you do not have your own gravitational field! You need to learn to humble yourself...you need to be put in your rightful place!!! And "friend," what does that even mean to you anyway. It is not just something you call people you talk to...it takes a special person to be a friend and an even more special person to be a best friend! I barely consider you an acquaintance...you render me invisible already anyway...just a nasty odor or something you can't get rid of...you warn people to not talk to me and to not be my friend....let me tell you something mister, you will turn none of my friends to your "dark side!" They don't care what you say or if you have cookies!! It is not happening. My friends love me and they only associated with you out of love to me, they don't need you like you think they do...no one needs you. No one needs scum between their toes, or a bad odor, or 5 day old french fries left in the sofa!! WE DON'T NEED YOU!! Hate is a very strong word...but I really really really DON'T like you!!!!!!


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Ranting, sorry to all who have to bear this fighting! I promise I don't keep contact with my exes and this will be over soon. But Ariyanna and Patricia thanks for listening to me day in and day out. Thanks for always being there for me! You are my BEST Friends, and I love you both dearly! For the rest of my friends who may read this...I love you all for sticking true to me...Thanks!



Until Next Time


Nothing Like the Peace After the Storm

The Thankful She has Real Friends SAVVY!

Labels: friends, rant

So Kate drank all my juice and I am mad...end of story!! Just thougt I'd update!

peace

Savvs

So Zack(Hannah's friend...you all know him) said the nicest thing to me....He said that Jeff is an ***hole!! Haha! I told him what Jeff had said about me not helping the fact that he is gay and how it is kinda my fault, and his reply was that he was an ***hole and he needed his face beat in! Wow, I think I love you Zack(whoa now don't get excited..totally not my new love interest)!! Well just thought I'd enlighten all the Jeff-haters out there!

Until Next Time

Peace

The Satisfied(for now) Savvy

Labels: ***hole

Well I have decided that maybe a social homicide would be the right anecdote for my dear ex that just can't quit breaking my heart and the hearts of others. He doesn't care that he hurts someone alomost every time he opens his mouth, constantly dissing others and pushing himself to the top. Well the top is not where you belong Mr. "I'm a Bottom!" You need to be out in your place and know what it feels like to be hurt by someone who you previously thought to be your friend!!
Already I have duped you once by hacking your myspace account because you were dumb enough to tell me your password. So you found out and tried to block me but, guess what, I know your email password and I am just gonna do it again! Mwahahaha.
For my next feat I will plaster your "secret" all over the campus of UNA since you have more friends there!!
Only you will determine the extent of this. I have said it once and I'll say it again. I am never friends with my exes. It just doesn't work that way. They are pigs and I can do much better. With you being the biggest pig of all because until now you were a nasty swine in disguise!
This will serve as a shout out to all the people you have done wrong and my blog will become very public if you continue to ruin lives. I am not to be messed with, Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned!!

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Hannah thinks Bob ruined her vase and I know he didn't do it! He hasn't been at the apartment in three weeks!! GRR! When will they give it a rest. She bugs me almost as much as Jeff bugs me. She says one thing and does another. She says she likes this person and then sabotages then behind their back. Hmm I think they have alot in common.

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Well I must study for a quiz that is looming over my head like the black cloud of death so I must bid you adieu!!



Until Next Time


Peace is for Hippies


The Furious and Vengeful Savvy

Labels: REVENGE

So I failed my first test and have another next thursday. My contacts are the wrong prescription and they are really bothering me on a daily basis. I can't remember them ever bothering me this much. I finally have my costume finished for the party!! That's a plus. And I am going to the beach this weekend for a much needed vacay. Even though the trip is really for my mom's college bowl tournament...LOL! I have also decided that my superpower (assuming I had superpowers lol) is invisibilty only to my enemies. I have drawn this conclusion because it seems that those who decide to hate me also have the inability to see me even if I am right in front of their face. This invisibilty also effects hearing apprently cause they typically don't hear me either. On a somewhat freakish note, when I am typing this and I look out the corner of my eye my arm appears to be green...WEIRD! Just some random thoughts for now!

Peace

Savvy